DESTINATION A

生活

2011-06-04T20:49:00.001-07:00

Every felt that you are breathing..
..but not alive?

生活皆是如此一般
雕阑玉砌应犹在只是朱颜改

2811

你开心所以我开心

Child's Heart

2008-09-25T04:39:00.000-07:00

was on bus number 12 home
saw this little girl, call Chelsea
she wanna play scissors paper stone wit her dad
one round, the wager is $100/-
the father said "i dun have $100!"
the little girl starts to throw tantrums
the father said "how about $2?"
chelsea cried "i don't want, i want $100!"
her elder sister sitting in front playing PSP said
"chelsea, $1 can buy sweets already
daddy tell her $1 or nothing!"
she starts to hammer her dad

hahha..
irritatingly cute
(how long have i not used this word?)
irritatingly cute
irritatingly cute

i remember some time ago
i was on the bus
there was this girl
i "satay" her
(rub my finger under her nose)
she would start covering her face
it was really fun
and irritatingly cute
(this was the only time i used this word)
best bus ride ever
hope she's doing well in school
made some great friends in life
cos life is not an easy journey

i envy em kids

Child's Heart
Charles' Heart
any readers know my secret name's Charles? (besides Tony)
I'm a Child's Heart
I'm a Peterpan Legacy
I fly...

good bye to you..

2008-09-18T18:48:00.000-07:00

good bye to you..

good bye to everything that i knew..

2008-09-17T19:59:00.001-07:00

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Goodbye, Destination A!

2008-07-02T20:02:00.000-07:00

Goodbye, Destination A! =)
I don't need to travel anymore
I don't have to anymore
I won't need to get my lost/high fix anymore
I'm cured
My little cottage is built

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

[Final messages]
Pei-g - bury the hate, dun fight anymore. you think u are not fighting, but u actually are. look at wat u are doing? trying to destroy me on my blog, i'm too imbal to be destroyed already cos i admit my mistakes, repent and learnt from it already. i have forgiven myself. i never denied hurting you. if both of us have to hurt, at least let her be free.
Friends - too many to be named here. Thanks for standing by me at my weakest moments. Especially Adrian, Wilson, Pangster, Pok and Animal Farm. I love you all. Though i managed to break free by myself, each and everyone of you played a part being by my side. I dunno how to repay your kindness, maybe you can fuck my backside (i'm kidding only ar, i kill you if u do)!
International - thanks for all your expensive calls and messages from overseas to check if i'm ok =) Really sweet of you guys. Sze Tat (China), Lou Yi (Taiwan), Kuo Hsin (Paris), JiaJin (Australia), Songyu (Australia), Leslie (Indonesia + Thailand), Tasha (Heaven)
The Weak - friends i tried to heal and give my words of advice. I've been there, i know no words can save you. only you can save yourself. Be strong. Time will not heal, nobody can help you. you have to find your own cure. 小雨，保佑你！
The Divine - though it din help. Thanks to Yong Kang's God, 大伯公, 四马路观音, 六殿大爷伯
The Rest - who dun understand what the f*ck i'm blogging most of the time. check out the songs on my imeem playlist for Destination A, go through every single lyrics to them. Maybe you will.
MING - remember what you promise Adrian. Now spread your wings and fly..

http://thedemoninme.blogspot.com/

2008-07-02T09:55:00.001-07:00

woo-- i'm floaty already
lets see if i can play dota in this state of mind
i swear i fuckin' love this feeling

COME ON!!!!!
imbal imbal imbal

before all, i wanna go buy some red bull
if not i'll knock out real soon
hope i dun get knocked down by cars

take me away
and bake my brains
hell yeah!

tomorrow i fly

2008-07-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

there was a time
when we din care about what the world thinks
cos we knew we gon' be together forever
cos we knew we're made for each other
at the end of the ordeal

there was a time
when nobody wants to see us together
but it dun matter, no
cos i got you

there was a time
when i would do anything to protect u
to make you happy
to be there for you

bake my brains
bake my brains
my brain is so damaged now
i have forgotten most of it
let me forget every single remaining pieces of it
cos i will not hang on to an abandoned love
i will not be treated wit cruelty
i will not put anything before my dignity anymore

tomorrow i will fly
tomorrow i will soar
tomorrow i will unleash all my demons
burn down the heaven we built
every single piece of it
http://thedemoninme.blogspot.com/

2 more Dota items

2008-07-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

introducing 2 items

1. AEGIS - got it from fighting Roshan, this errmm big monster. this item gives u an extra life when u die. kinda like unicorn - ressurection. but only once.

2. HELM OF THE DOMINATOR - give you +5 armor, +20 damage, 15% life steal, ability to domintate creeps. Creeps means enemy minions, not those tasty little french crepes you eat. Why would u wanna dominate crepes anyway?

i'm supposed to make this item into Satanic to get +25% life steal, +25 strength, +5 armor, Unholy Rage (active). but i was too imbal-ly squashing A.I.s like ants, i forgot all about the items.

Seeing is NOT Believing

2008-07-02T04:43:00.000-07:00

Mahjong session at my house
Wilson, Bryan, Pok & Cherlie

板面

Omelette Rice - Indian Muslim style =)

F*ckin' hell!
Why i kena reservist letter, Adrian never kena?
Moreover he's working and i'm schooling
Report my ass~~

Witnessed a car knockin' over a pizza boy
there were pizza all over the floor
some passerby students came to help him up
quite poor thing
but i can't help but find it kinda amusing
wat kinda sick bastard have i become?

Lodging Opera can be a total b*tch!
especially when you're a computer idiot
like me.. F*ck!

Went to see Pras after that
glad it wasn't a couselling session
he juz wanted to talk to me about SIP
and really boring stuff about my career plans
I used to really love Pras when i was in Sem1.1
Really jealous/envious of him for a year
now, i really just see him as "another" lecturer
who remembers my name - MING

not wrong i saw someone cry
why?
too stressed up?
sand/dust in your eye?
just having a flu?
its a new trend to cry?
new guy dumped you?
dumped new guy?
it better not be for me
else it would be wicked sick
cos i dun wanna believe wat SH told me
cos you were the one who dumped me
and moved on;
forbid me to put up our pictures
even called the cops on me;
and tell me to pretend we never met;
then tell me we could still be "brothers"
yet act like i'm your b*tch;
if anyone were to deserve sympathy
it would be ME

but i dun see the need to cry anymore
and i dun think i can anymore
i found back so many things i lost when i was wit u
tears i never knew i had
pain i never knew i would feel
pride and ego - something a man can never lose
sanity, dignity & judgement - something a man needs as much as food, air and water
and now, anger, i thought i had killed long ago

not wrong i am damn strong now
not wrong tomolo when i get my wings
i will be IMBAL!

so what does it take
for you to be happy?
maybe u need to cry 85 days
go backpacking
take some chill pills
get some tattoos
maybe, just maybe
you'll be fine too
cos you dun and i wun
wanna kiss you on the forehead
and tell you
"everything's gonna be alright!"

Seeing is NOT Believing
Believing is Seeing
that was how i brought you to heaven

i hope its just the flu virus or dust
else you're really beautifully weird!

my dearest Tasha, if you were here
i would carry you in my arms like i used to
and we'll soar to great heights
and you can disturb all the birds in the skies;
BUT before all, you have to let me rub your nose
pull your tail
and tickle your big proud ears
i'm such a big bully, but i love you, girl
and i'll always do!

the bus is so freakin' packed
but i'm glad i get to sit down this time
(if you get wat i mean..)

shall do up DPD presentation slides
play some Dota
get "lost" for the last few times
and knock out till tomolo morning

postscript:
i din mention any names
readers, do not assume
its not what, who, where, when, which, why, how you are thinking

2008-07-02T01:47:00.001-07:00

sian

Ancient Tango of Essifaction

2008-07-01T14:52:00.001-07:00

i watch as grass grows out of the barren abandoned land
which was a forest i have set fire to
with my very own hands
for the sake of a tree

my evergreen forests
my oldest trees that gives the best shelters
my trees that bears the sweetest fruits
and attracts the birds that serenades the most beautiful melodies
gone

they will grow again
i juz have to be patient about it =)
in the middle of the forest
i will build a small wooden cottage
just me and my small wooden cottage

1st DOTA IMBAL

2008-07-01T14:08:00.000-07:00

Foreword: I AM A DOTA IDIOT! I swear~~

I juz had my very first Dota IMBAL
using this Axe guy call Mogul Kahn (yes.. mogu mogu~)
For the sake of those who dun play Dota
I've listed the items:

1. Satanic: +25% life steal, +25 strength, +5 armor, Unholy Rage (active)
2. Divine Rapier: +250 damage
3. Power Treads: +65 movement speed, +30% attack speed, +10 of chosen attributes
4. The Butterfly: +30 agility, +30 damage, +30% increased attack speed, +30% Evasion
5. Radiance: +60 damage, Radiance effect (aura), 8% Evasion
6. Hand of Midas: +30% attack speed, Transmute (active)

If you are a Dota player, you'll probably be laughing at the items i bought
I just started playing Dota 2 weeks ago after being Imbal in Monster Hunter 2G
I have totally wat item does wat and where to buy them from, usually i'll spend like 5min staring at the recipe shops scratching my head searching for items. And i always get scolded by team mates for buying stupid and useless items.

I NEVER bought this thing, every Dota player knows its a MUST-BUY, called Ancient Tango of Essifaction ("eating tree") its kinda like health potion. And i'm very stubborn about it. Maybe because i'm not a vegetarian?
Power Treads is my must-buy cos it makes my hero run faster, another 2 items that i never fail to buy (no matter what hero I got) is the Radiance and the Hand of Midas. The reasons are even stupider.
Radiance makes your enemies nearby glitter very pretty-ly, Hand of Midas allows you to turn your little enemy minions into gold which is rather entertaining sometimes. Another item i always make is the Mask of Madness because the icon looks like Captain America and it sucks off enemies' life like a vampire.

This is the first time I bought items like The Butterfly, Divine Rapier and Satanic. I don't even know what they do and if i'm using them correctly, just happened that I have a lot of gold and I remembered my friends telling me these items are good.

I swear today is the first time i squash insane A.I. like ants!
Like ants!

Mogu Mogu~~

2008-07-01T11:22:00.000-07:00

suddenly i think i know wat amelia meant
when she said "no lor, u disappeared first. you were so busy wit your freshies!"
i think she meant "freshie", not "freshies".

now it could be my bad
hmmm...

2008-07-01T10:59:00.001-07:00

cherlie, dun be a quitter!

doreen

2008-07-01T10:04:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!!

doreen says:
did you went top table with amelia b4?

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
how u know? O_o!!!!
sorry was dota-ing

doreen says:
hahah
guys.
cos right.... .
i served ur table
SO.

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
REALLI?
i din even remember
how u know it was me?

doreen says:
ok i'm not sure if its u
but I THINK that person looks like you
but i recognise amelia...

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
yea it was me

doreen says:
she only went there with you right? no other guys right?

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
then how come i dun recognise u

doreen says:
no idea

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
maybe cos SSM u not so cute

doreen says:
i m not cute ~
so... it's the same
anw i think i rmb that you reminded me to top up ur water a few times. before mr goh has the chance to roar at me

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
so means i saboh-ed u?

doreen says:
nono
you helped me

流浪のMING - MAKE ME KING this time, the heavens will tremble says:
means u stupid?

doreen says:
WHATTTTTTT
no ok
i 'm just.. panicky HAHAH

2008-07-01T08:38:00.000-07:00

dunno why when lynette ask me to "eat shit"
i laugh like one mad man

anywayz did i say i lost my purple file?
my e-biz file?
i lost it and got 37/50

and MICE
went to study at mac wit wilson and mason
but end up playing battlefield and counterstrike
and i got an "A" wit wilson
how power is that?

catch up a bit on msn wit lynette, madeline, gina, ling ling
i love you girls - i swear
each one of u got ur own unique mental disorder

sorry chianlin, i give the crown to doreen

ooh darling cos you'll always be my baby =)

the day everyone cried except me

2008-07-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

the day everyone cried except me

2008-07-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

look at wat an idiot u are!
its NEVER your fault la..
u're the most perfect person in this world.

weirdo, you got issues
and i'm not your bitch!
at least not anymore
you do not bark at me!

2008-07-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

i like to check wit myself from time to time
like a doctor
just that i'm both the doctor and the patient at the same time
even from years back

how are u feeling?
strong

why?
callous and careless

how strong?
imbal

are you happy?
there's no happy or unhappiness

why?
cannot feel any emotions

how?
i need a home

but you are a sagi?
even sagis need a home

but you are ming?
even ming need a home

freedom or home?
home, if its a right home
i give up all my freedom
i clip my own wings

2008-07-01T06:46:00.001-07:00

the demons came a bit too early..
swear i feel like i'm floaty in sch all day
i'm not high, maybe its the lack of sleep..
glad i'm back
but is this the old me? or is this the new me?

天亮起了

2008-06-30T12:49:00.000-07:00

当你边飞边流下泪滴
我不认为谁变了心
听说你的爱碰上雨季
又湿了又冷生了一场病
心疼的我想给你暖意
倔强的你不让我走近
就算我真能拋弃一切
你又怎么去战胜自己

不顾一切的爱才算是爱
从来没有感慨一路走来
不记得悲哀只记得愉快
总想为你实现你的期待
不顾一切的爱无可取代
所受的伤害都像是告白

天亮起了
是因为心情好了
没怎么了
爱情大概都这样了

Sorry Wilson, some lyrics cannot be expressed in English
Kan, be cool!
小雨，保佑你。
Welcome back Bao Bao! =) Can't wait to see what you bought for me and Adrian
Thanks Pok, Wilson, Bryan and Cherlie
Purposely write some of my thoughts in Chinese so that most of you Jiat Kan Tans cannot read wat-in-hell i'm writing.. Even if you do, you won't know what it mean. Even if you know what it meant, you dunno how to relate it to my thoughts! Muahhahahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahaha! 无双！

寻寻觅觅冷冷清清凄凄惨惨戚戚
乱世浮生
我一吼摇天万里威
此恨何时已
以杀止杀，以仁克暴
怕就怕春光灿烂成遗憾只剩意难忘

Goodbye To You

2008-06-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

All You Wanted

2008-06-30T06:59:00.000-07:00

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

2008-06-30T05:37:00.001-07:00

feels good to be back!
HA HA HA HA HA HA
i'm back

保佑我

2008-06-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

突然变得很坚强，但躲不开心里淡淡的忧伤
保佑我

HANCOCK
anyone noticed the reflection on his shades?
left: esplanade right: singapore flyer

breakfast wit pok at Ya Kun

French Toast Set C

fwah-- so skinny

pok head kena stung by monster mosquito

hello gurpal
your daughter kicked my dog

tearful valentines' day

accessories for Thursday

Saba Set

Pok dun eat Black Pizza
only knew today after EIGHT years!

"Can I take a photo with you?"

昨天太近，明天太远
保佑我

2008-06-28T20:46:00.000-07:00

if its broken
wat matters is if u're willing to mend it
and how u will mend it

if its gone
wat matters is if u're willing to find it
and how u will find it

there's no right or wrong
wat matters is the strength to do it
and how u will do it

i can feel my wings
thursday please come fast
sagittarius love thursdays
wat matters is if i'm willing to make it beautiful
and how i will make it beautiful

take one last look at my empty back
before my wings burst out
and i will charge at the sun
burn and shine like a muthafuckin' arch-angel

learn to fly =)

2008-06-28T13:36:00.000-07:00

forever and ever?
i laughed so hard
i almost had a stomachache

2008-06-28T12:49:00.000-07:00

i know that my mother knows
a particular some thing that i am thinking
and she feels the same way too
but we din say it
cos it will only upset the both of us
sorry ma
its my bad

can tell she's rather happy today

she can see my wings

Saturday Saturday Saturday

2008-06-28T10:57:00.001-07:00

dearest pok, i dunno why and how it come to this end
i dun wanna hear things like
"its your friends and people around you that you are hurting, by hurting yourself"
i dun wanna hear things like
"you still have your friends and people who care, around you"
where the fuck is everyone when i'm alone fighting and crying?
at least now i dun even think about it
or maybe i've lost the ability to
time did not heal me
if u really have always been proud of me and have faith in me
believe in wat i'm doing now
believe in me
believe in the route i'm taking now
believe in me cos i finally see sunlight after 86 days

lunch at eunos wit yang, adrian and hs
bumped into puny zhao

took a long lecture from adrian
if he had scolded me i probably wun listen
but he told me he was disappointed
especially when i lied to him
cried at the coffeeshop
made a pact with him

保佑小雨
“谁说不能哭？我们不能输，我们要振作！保佑我。”

lomographer with swollen eyes

好后悔好伤心
想重来行不行
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局

Thank you, Jocelyn!
Run and tell the angels
that everything's alright..

任我醉倒在池边

2008-06-28T09:12:00.000-07:00

（活着就像在天堂，我将在二十四小时后消失）
脱下长日的假面 奔向梦幻的疆界 （午夜）
南瓜马车的午夜换上童话的玻璃鞋 （为什么不想回家？）
让我享受这感觉我是孤傲的蔷薇
让我品尝这滋味 纷乱世界的不了解
昨天太近明天太远默默聆听那黑夜
晚风吻尽荷花叶任我醉倒在池边
等你清楚看见我的美月光晒干眼泪 （正午）
那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握 （你快乐吗？）
抱紧我吻我 （我听到心跳声） 喔爱~~~ 别走（五月夏日午后）
隐藏自己的疲倦表达自己的狼狈
放纵自己的狂野找寻自己的明天
向你要求的誓言就算是你的谎言 （我的心脏几乎停止）
我需要爱的慰借就算那爱已如潮水 （五月夏日午后）
昨天太近明天太远默默聆听那黑夜
晚风吻尽荷花叶任我醉倒在池边 （悲哀的祷告在和式房间回转）
等你清楚看见我的美月光晒干眼泪 （夏夜）
那一个人爱我
将我的手紧握 （时间以一种很奇怪的方式停顿)
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~ 别走
那一个人爱我 (拥抱像世界末日里，一对老夫妻相互取暖）
将我的手紧握
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~ 别走 （世界上任何风景都会留下你的回忆）
抱紧我吻我喔爱~~~ 别走 （我消失后会不会下地狱？）
抱紧我吻我喔爱 （要拥抱的不是自己的爱人这种感觉很微妙不可解）

为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
为你的难过而难过的　就是那些　该放进心里的人

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞
才发现笑着哭最痛
能够忘记一切的解药同时是一种毒药
任我醉倒在池边 对不起
没有人能够了解
只能怪自己不够坚强
同时败给了寂寞

2008-06-26T20:52:00.000-07:00

i'm not letting go of my pride and dignity this time round
no one can hurt me anymore
i will not allow

now i just want my justice
and i can be VERY brutal
if you push me hard enough

i will not be the sissy
everyone saw
never again

sorry adrian and bao bao
dun be disappointed wit me already
i wun do it again

i'm bigger than my body
gives me credit for
i will fly/soar out of this

2008-06-26T11:25:00.001-07:00

bao bao, 对不起

2008-06-26T10:20:00.000-07:00

sok wei
you disappeared first
i am damn sure
remember we are meeting for breakfast
Bread Board 7:30am
dun be late
if not i won't do your tie for you

maybe i will die

2008-06-26T09:02:00.000-07:00

Lodging Opera

1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5..
maybe i will die

i'm sorry

2008-06-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

Adrian, i'm sorry
i promise i will never do it again
i need this
if not i can never return to the old me
i thought you will be the one who'll understand
it did gave me strength

i swear i wun do it again
i dun break my promises

you know you are one of 5 person
whom i allow close to my heart
when you said you are disappointed and hurt
it breaks my heart too

i'm sorry
forgive me
i wun do it again

2008-06-25T01:35:00.000-07:00

you suck!

2008-06-25T00:20:00.001-07:00

its funny
i dun even remember my own time table

2008-06-25T00:04:00.000-07:00

they're probably just lies again

2008-06-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

how can i not feel pain
after reading something like that?

2008-06-24T23:19:00.001-07:00

u know
sometimes when there's a house
u dun wanna stay in it

u bump around
made a few mistakes
here and there
get cheated
by this fucked up world

actually angry wit urself
but u blame the house

there are so many demons out there
only the ones who used to have
em demons residing in them
knows how to kill a demon

its a nasty world
out there
even ppl pretending
to had em diablos

Letter to God..

2008-06-24T18:06:00.000-07:00

Guys at work chiong-ing projects
Not really..

Aaron's too fascinated with Bumblebee

I was too busy snapping away

Can't really see
but Chin's busy chatting with his best friend, Sua Su Ping

Rahim, praying to the Holy Land, maybe

Wilson and his horrible singing

At around 5am, Mason dropped by
look at that muthafucka smoking in the lift
We all ended up playing Dota *smacks forehead*

As much of a villian that I was
God has always sent me to rescue his children in trouble
and i always did a good job
Perhaps God sent me to heal you from Mark's
and my job is finished
I don't really know too
and to punish me at the same time for my past

I'm very sure God sent me Wilson
to heal me this time round
and probably Wilson couldn't handle me alone
Thanks for sending Mason this week

It cannot be coincidental
He even knows my next moves
and persuades me not to summon the demons
the death defying, that lived in me
I know the choice is mine
after the reinforcement team arrives

Please give me time till July 3, 2008
I will decide if the angels shall heal me
or the demons shall take over me again
At least I face it and admit my mistakes
But you have done me injust!

Projecting at Wilson's

2008-06-24T12:30:00.000-07:00

my group just spent 20min laughing at ********'s group project
she must have done a big part in the project
J***** G**** ROX! tweece!

earlier on, spent 30min discussing if doreen is cute

then when me and wilson went out to smoke
aaron played a very intelligent prank - BRUTAL!

u OWNAGE, aaron teo!

thanks guys, it was kinda refreshing chionging project together
each and everyone of you - chin, wilson, rahim, aaron
love you guys! =)

2008-06-24T12:02:00.000-07:00

Looking to the sky to save me..

2008-06-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

This is roughly how my wings will look like
after July 3, 2008 (Thursday)

Never study also can get 37/50
Wat a genius i am!

I can feel myself unleashing the Demon in me
that i have lost touch with, for so long
Miss me? Shall I let you out?

What a joke!
I don't deserve this..

Get up (get up) Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Fucked up driver

Fucking up his car

The Question after Aston's

Wat i used to enjoy when working at Geylang

Run and tell all of the angels
This could take all night
Think I need a devil to help me get things right
Hook me up a new revolution
Cause this one is a lie
We sat around laughing and watched the last one die

I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking cause I'm tired of trying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly high

I think I'm done nursing the patience
I can wait one night
I'd give it all away if you give me one last try
We'll live happily ever trapped if you just save my life
Run and tell the angels that everything is alright..

Come along with me
I can't quite make it alone
Try to make this life my own
Fly along with me, I can't quite make it alone
Try and make this life my own

Looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking cause I'm tired of trying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly high
Make my way back home when I learn to fly
Make my way back home when I learn to learn to learn to learn to

2008-06-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

everything is just a game to you
i am just one of your toys
just ONE of your toys..

2008-06-23T21:19:00.000-07:00

stop bleeding, ming
gonna get my wings later

2008-06-23T16:57:00.000-07:00

yesterday dreamt of cooking
just now dreamt of stone carving
wat about tomolo?

2008-06-23T09:51:00.001-07:00

Lets hit restart and pause it at our favourite parts, says:
hhahaha dont be silly, you'll find a girl who will think you're her dream boy, one day

2008-06-23T09:05:00.000-07:00

pull me up now, bao bao!

you became..

2008-06-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

wanted to sleep for 30min
and wake up to do my e-biz
but toss and turn couldn't sleep

finally decided to do one of the things
i din allow myself to
and i searched through my favourites
read the post
Do You Know..
and several other posts
remembering the scent
the way you hold me
look at me
and all and all

at least i did not lie
at least i kept my words
at least i know wat i really want

i changed
into a man
who dreams to settle down finally

while you changed..
you became the old me

2008-06-23T07:40:00.001-07:00

don't wanna be irritating
almost paradise, we're knocking on heaven's door

2008-06-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

Xiao Yu say i look good in this pic

http://bp1.blogger.com/_m5-oXSJfqSw/SEpKnWQY8lI/AAAAAAAAAJk/VCRR1pIO82E/s1600-h/DSC00517.JPG

Thank you!
Thank you!

I DON'T UNDERSTAND!

2008-06-23T06:31:00.000-07:00

I can smile all day
I can laugh all night
But I can't stop crying inside
I don't understand
I DON'T UNDERSTAND!

brought a 太阳饼 for siewlin
my sister bought it all the way from Taiwan

cos we're the 太阳饼 Kids
since Ophix days
She said Compasspoint now got sell 太阳饼
but it doesn't taste half as good as Taiwan ones

I swear this is 回复药G
I must buy one, soon!

Testing my new $7.30 pen on the MICE case study
Then Mr. Tan saw and he panicked
"Don't write on the worksheet!"
"Pencil only! Pencil only!"
"Why don't you write on a writing pad?"
"Sir, very poor.."

One of our classmate came back from Osaka and bought us this
VERY TASTY! i swear..
Reminds me of this cartoon character, Osaka
from Azumanga-Daiyoh!

Found a new smoking area

Me and Wilson

Went to A1 Chendol to buy bubble tea

Close friends will know i NEVER drink Peppermint
but i ordered the same as Wilson to save the hassle
couldn't even finish half of it

Walked Wilson home
When he left
My heart started crying again
Write new> Text Message> Continue
Back> Don't Save
Wilson "Don't look!"
The same words Pras said to me..
No one understands
I don't understand also
No one believes
I don't believe also

Me and Guanzuo ate here on my birthday
it was really special
cos none of my friends remembered my birthday
only he came down and brought me an Adidas shoe bag
then Chiu Ling came by and gave me chocolates

I brought a special friend here also
to date, still haven received the hand-made present
I remember I get to eat all the foie gras and seafood
cos my friend dun eat em
no wonder I was so fat

Met Benji and Angela for dinner at Sakae Century Square
Sake Sushi

Tempura

Then went HD
I think this would be really nice

We had the Belgium thing instead
The waffle is superb

Dropped maple syrup beside my crotch
Sian.. Look like I leaked

The MNG sale display was same as in Malacca

On my way home I sprained my left ankle
Sian..
I swear I so f**ked up this semester
I dunno whats wrong I can't seem to focus and do anything
I heart, spirit, soul and mind is always somewhere else
And they're either missing or crying
Its rather irritating

I got so many project submissions
What have I been doing - NOTHING!
If I get marked down in peer evaluation
I really have nothing to say
Maybe will see Mason in 4.1

Stand up, MING!
STAND UP NOW!

Destination A

2008-06-22T21:07:00.000-07:00

so it was your dream too..
then why did you have to crush it?

i walk through
door by door
gate by gate
and i can never find my destination

DESTINATION A
the place where i can be myself
rest with a smile on my face
dance under the stars
play hide-and-seek in Giant supermarkets
sit in boxes in IKEA
eat free Mexican food
whatever..
like the whole world dun exist - destination A

2008-06-22T19:01:00.000-07:00

2008-06-20T15:40:00.000-07:00

some things still worries me

i'm the kinda idiot who forgets to breathe
when i brush my teeth in the morning
i'm the kinda idiot who think about the summer
and i bug cos i missed it

2008-06-20T03:13:00.000-07:00

spent one hour looking under drains
looking under void deck tables and chairs
ringing a bell
but attracted cats instead -_-"

a little factory girl

2008-06-19T02:25:00.000-07:00

i knew it
everyone's ought to lose something of utmost importance this year
if u lose one thing that is not important enough to you
you'll lose another, and another till you feel the pain
till the thing that means the most to you
but i still hope u can find it

2008-06-18T14:46:00.000-07:00

well done, clare!
you caught me

but do you know the difference between a guy and a girl?
a girl cries it all out
and moves on
a guy holds it till he cries it all out
and the feeling stays in him for a very very very long time

silly silly silly MING

2008-06-18T14:07:00.001-07:00

shall give myself one last week to smoke

2008-06-18T13:30:00.000-07:00

took a deep breath
and deleted 2GB worth of files on my laptop
its not easy
i dun wanna have this feeling
that i'm close to crying anymore

2008-06-18T09:47:00.000-07:00

i need more control over my mind and emotions
must never let it take over me again

Don't Matter

2008-06-18T09:39:00.000-07:00

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight(We gon' fight)
Believe we gon' fight(We gon' fight)

Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

** i remember this song

2008-06-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

i swear i'm an idiot
i took a bus to the interchange
was playing my MONSTER HUNTER 2G
i'm now officially G-Glass (the rank after Hunter Rank 7)
killing this kuku-bird
then the bus reached the interchange
all the passengers got off already
i was still playing

then i saw the uncle driving off
i quickly press the bell
the uncle got a shock
said he din see me in the bus

maybe i'm a ghost

My Little Heaven

2008-06-18T06:32:00.001-07:00

life sure is funny

the beginning was a big mistake
the process was pleasant
but has many hardship
however at the end of the tunnel
was a heaven awaiting
there were rainbows, unicorns and waterfalls

many a time
human dun believe in the heaven
that is right in front of them
cos there were too many distractions
and cared too much about wat people around them may say
and are too afraid to trust and believe in a perfect heaven

one of my little heaven
was going out wit my dad
i enjoy spending time with him
its kinda weird
cos i'm 23yr old
and my friends will think
"wa lao-- go out wit ur dad ar?"
when i ditch them on outings/gatherings
call me mama's boy, papa's boy
my dad still calls me "boy boy"
even in public
as embarassing as it is
it was never shameful

its my little heaven
and i reach out to it
will you reach out to yours?

2008-06-18T05:38:00.001-07:00

thanks for being pro-active =)

Post Battlefield

2008-06-18T02:37:00.001-07:00

Its already Wednesday
Next Monday school reopens already
actually i kinda hope school reopens soon
unlike before
cos holidays were always sweet honeymoons
now they are nightmares
where i battle it out within myself
Pow Pow Pow
everyday there are bullets lying everywhere
patching of wounds
exploding of mortar
however now i think the coast is clear
its time to come out from the bomb shelter
and breathe in the air
and check if there're hints of gunpowder

guess i really woke up and understand already
now i'm sure i do already

Its time to beautify the place
with flowers, plants and lil animals

around 9am
Singapore Post called and told me my parcel is in my company's letter box
then i "Oh shit!" cos there's this forgotten letter box at the back of the building
so i called Key Mistress, Esther up to see wat time she gonna reach office
grab a cab with Kenneth and cabbed to office

this is how the Fish-eye Lens look on my very Vintage looking Black Holga
stupid Jack wasted 6 of my films snapping away
anyone wants to be a model? =)

Boys Outing to lunch!

Uncle Romeo - the driver

Jack and Benji

Me and Kenneth
(we kinda look alike huh?)

Tanjong Katong area
spent many Sundays working
and one eating Duck Rice with a close companion who came to visit

This was my primary school, Maha Bodhi till 1993
The two Buddhi trees that stood beside the gates were the signatures
Then it became some drug rehab for muslims

Mathew and Romeo

Sawadee~~

There used to be an Old Chang Kee stall here long long ago
before they start to appear in malls and charge curry puffs $1.10

On the way back it started to rain really heavily

Little Red Riding Hood

A little bonding

Esther to the rescue
(back door)

So i was stuck in the office
and Boss was around
so i sat around waiting for the rain to get smaller
play Monster Hunter 2G

Then its time to go

Will i miss this place?
i really dunno
Though the Mega Fair project
my company really paid me peanuts
and disrupted my JB trip
but it was a good 11 days to let me get really busy
and keep my mind off the madness for a while
so that now, i managed to start thinking for myself
its time to stop giving and start taking

went for a hair cut
at a place i haven been to for a long time

not too bad right?

3 fat cats

sorry wilson~

2008-06-17T08:59:00.000-07:00

was supposed to go to wilson's to do project
but was realli tired and dozed off
then angela and rabbit came over to my place

need to do a bit of touch up soon

we watched CJ7 and Talking Cock
Its been so damn long since we last met - the three of us

Rabbit brought chips and drinks

look! its tan hsien wei!
i watched till fell asleep
and i dunno how both of them disappeared from my house the next morning
maybe they din even came, it was a dream?
hmmm.. too many weird things happened now of days
anything is possible

went back to my company to collect my pay cheque
look at hunky wei liang

the gentle wind..

xiao bian tai busy at work

the phone booth that i realli liked

look! safety belts for children?

went to do restaurant review individual with Jocelyn
this place is so friggin hard to find
or maybe i got no sense of direction

the extensive menu

entre

strawberry milkshake
i think by now everyone knows i got a taste for sissy drinks

pizza and cabonara - both mine!

fried tofu with cheese

complimentary ice-cream

dunno why very often when i eat out
i get complimentary items
even had a free meal at Holland V before

and also $4 voucher
not bad eh?

went to MPH to look at children books
yes, i'm some kinda retard who likes to look at children's books
this is really cute

this too..

2008-06-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

been thinking the whole day
i still dun hate anyone or anything
i can't hate
i'm juz angry and disappointed with myself
for being blind and stupid

stupid stupid stupid me

2008-06-16T23:48:00.000-07:00

i hate u so much now
i feel like destroying ur life
and reputation forever

but no
i'm not going to

1. for the best 1yr in life
2. for all the things i've done that i cannot take it back
3. ur dad and sister who've given me the last respect i deserve

u're so lucky
i'm not as cruel as u
and i loved you that much

I FEEL SO

2008-06-16T21:38:00.000-07:00

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

2008-06-16T21:12:00.001-07:00

tattoo is an understatement
its more like tumour

ur stupid trick keeps repeating itself
whenever there's a new guy
never together
pretend we never met
you tell me i'm disgusting
you're just the same
no, you became the old me
except that i am not that cruel
and everything still means something to me

love blinded me
wun let it anymore
this is seriously FUCKED up
how could any sane man take this nonsense

i juz realised i lost my sanity all these while
wun lose it anymore
i need my judgement
u're a tumour
that haunts me with pain every now and then
i need an operation
u dun deserve all the heart and soul in me
for all i've done..
you dun deserve it for all you've done to fuck me up!

Out with Leslie

2008-06-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

you help me rid the poison in me
why now you wanna inject it back into me

i know i wun die cos
Tua Ya say i have a life obstacle at 35

had lunch wit Leslie at Sim Lim Square food court
late for 30min - not so bad right?

Les is leaving on Tuesday for Indonesia and Thailand for business
so we went to 4th street Kwan Yin temple to pray
prayed for Angela and Benji's Thailand trip next week

i remember one divinity that i got some time ago
it says:
"you dropped a compass into the ocean and kept searching for it
after a very long search you finally found it
but its of no use to you already"

i guess life is like that, you can cherish a friend a lot
but it always takes 2 hands to clap
if the friend dun appreciate you
there's nothing u can do about it
and when the friend finally realise
u've been there all along
maybe i'm over the hills and far away already
or he/she've done far too much fuck-ups for me to forgive and
its too late to apologize..

went to buy a thicker cable for my monitor - $15
Les bought some USB stuff

decided to go TCC for coffee

but Les was kinda on caffaine OD
and acting cranky already
so he had peppermint tea
and for me - something more sissy
Banana Blend

showed me some new high-tech expensive fabric
he used for his new Teddy Bear project
this is quite cool
u can scramble the hair, mess it up
and when u shake it a little
the hair all stands up in one direction
they call it - sculptable

notice i age a lot due to
- lack of sleep
- lack of water
- dry skin from air-con
- lack of sunlight
- lack of sports
- lack of friends
- lack of happy emotions

see the one in black spag?
its a guy!
wonder why Bugis so many trannies

panorama
love using this mode

watching people walk pass

almost forgot i wanted to quit smoking

bought a pencil for $7.30

heading home
i'll always keep this thing in my mind
"you can lose anything, but your sanity!"

watched a bit of CJ7 on my wide screen
the experience is superb
my laptop suddenly became HD

waiting to go over to wilson's to do project

MEGA FAIR DAY 4

2008-06-15T13:11:00.000-07:00

一整天的心情很腐败
想让自己败坏
想让自己暴走
来隐藏心里的不安与孤单

today is the last day of the Mega Fair
the last day of my 11 days in Urban as a Office slave
woke up to a very fucked up feeling
and my heart was crying the whole day non-stop
so i decided not to sms anyone

some ppl managed to find me
thanks wilson =)
your sms-ed always lets me know i'm breathing
jocelyn, tot you forgot me le
doris and adrian who came and look for me

fed myself some ice-cream, its supposed to be theraputic
my flyer gang (Edsmund and Wilex)
my flyer gang (guy on left is Samuel Toh Rui Jie) gave me quite a lot of trouble. Right, Gavin.
Hui Hui and Samantha (very troublesome, wherever i shift her, she'll be surrounded by hoards of suitors asking her for number)

Regina and Joan, my stolen flyer girls.
carrie, another stolen flyer.

during the most fucked up moments, i wish there were someone out there i can call up and talk to. some who can tell me sweet nothings that makes everything feels sheltered and protected. so that i can keep things under control.

kenneth, the xiao bian tai!

sheena got caught sleeping by Xiang Yang. Right, Xinyi eating lunch.

the si peh cute motorola rabbit. u know the one wit the wavy arms?

went to get a starbucks, tot very long and finally decided to have GT CRM - Green tea cream frapp

Sheena insisted she must have the rest of my GT CRM cos its her fav starbucks drink. anyway left 1/4 only. so we traded.

my GT CRM for a $100 newly bidded pink colour phone
yea right
dun pray pray wit this girl
she never bought her own things
other than her ear rings
she got many different guys to pay for her stuff
she got more handphones and gadgets than my pimples
DANGER!

look at how messy these people are
eat 2 mouth throw there
flyers everywhere

rubbish rubbish more rubbish

andrew, all the way from UK
and my ex-classmate, Wanling

Tear down!

the last customer actually won the Sony Bravia tv
think the sintel ppl quite unhappy
cos they almost got ready to bring it back to office already
haha!

my heart bleed and bleed like it was having menses
i need a plaster

tear down

tear down

jessica's bad command in chinese
she read the chinese characters and told me
"hey lets check if there are still mooncakes, inside!"
anywayz this is one of the lucky dip prizes
it has 2 birds nest, 1 shark fin, 1 abalone and 1 forgot-already

tear down

goodbye!

me and qing wei
一人一半感情不散

on the taxi home
look at the baldy driver - shiny head

look wat i got
sony ericsson mini-blaster
to play music on my phone
quite cool
been listening to CLASS 95

and my 22inch LCD monitor beside my laptop
its so huge i think i got a neck ache
anyone wanna come watch dvds with me?

MEGA FAIR DAY 3

2008-06-15T12:30:00.000-07:00

hmmm..
CLASS 95 is now playing Spice Girl - 2 Become 1
sian

breakfast with kenneth, my treat

all kinds of rubbish people wrote
singaporean damn kiasu
the fair open at 12pm, this is the queue at 9am
tracy - idiot!
the queue at 10am
fighting starhub
i must say starhub is really smart and creative
unfortunately, sintel is really rich
sam and brian
hui hui and shuwen

jananessa and mark
the red pac mascots - very cute
janessa - i swear she look like this korean actress. if i'm not wrong the name is cai ling. or something.
dun ask me intro hor. she got bf one.

cecilia and edsmund.
sheena chewed on a rubber band thinking it was chilli. then she explained how much she likes eating chilli -_-"
fixing queue pole for tomolo
malay rapper, md. jessica
instructing the security guard

2008-06-14T16:30:00.000-07:00

so its like a game for you
where u can make little quizes and tests?
wat am i? a toy?

look at it this way
you're an employee of a company
you always do your best
but the boss always gives u shit
find ways to tekan you
dun turn up for your sharing session
reject all your ideas/proposals
ignore you when you say "good morning"
then you decided to join another company
your boss finally said "this is just a test for your loyalty"

MEGA FAIR DAY 2

2008-06-14T10:06:00.000-07:00

bleeding traffic jam in the morning

queue at 9am
singaporeans are so kiasu

queue at 1159am

my flyer party!

xuefeng - i think

janassa and magdeline

jeremy

felicia

jeremy

primary school to JC schoolmates - sharon and nicole
behind the backdrop is hui hui

khadijah
her right eye is always red
quite scary

left work for award ceremony

tada!
but no one is around

so went reservoir for a smoke alone

hmmmm
the best days

had cabonara even though i was not hungry
cos i know i'm leaving TP soon

which fat ass destroyed the toilet seat?

unice olsen
very pretty in person

peishi and bernard poh
camera girl: amanda

chinyi and bryan
eclipse and some cute candy
shu qiang, troy, jeremy, janassa
sms competition with south asia's fastest finger - JT from republic poly
lucky dip redemption
forgot her name, hmmm-- cannot remember
very pretty Moto Ferrari promoter
sales counters
cute red pac mascots
guan yuan, magdeline, hui hui and xue feng
me - express youself!
here we go again
prison break

6 months free?
fierce competition
heading home?

nope.. have to buy tomolo's things at mustafa
jancy posted this picture some time ago, any idea wat the bottles are?
i love grocery shopping
kenneth and jessica
ate a bit here
masala potato with curry plus coke lite
a lot of sleeping ppl here
nuggets

2008-06-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

even though i know all you said was bullshit
to make me feel worse

2008-06-13T16:24:00.000-07:00

the reasons grew stronger each day
as i fear to find out
grew tired of the response
fly away, ming
fly away where no one can find you

2008-06-13T12:41:00.001-07:00

Deepest condolences to Clifton
who's next?
please let it be me

2008-06-13T12:31:00.000-07:00

你是来救我的吗？

SINGTEL MEGA FAIR day 1

2008-06-12T12:23:00.000-07:00

brushing my teeth in the office

wanted to brush for jimmy neutron
but he wouldn't open his mouth

freaky cigarette

CLASS 95 at 4:09am

someone bring me to the singapore flyer soon, please

muthu!!!!

shopping for fishing line with kenneth-gor gor
we keep calling him gor-gor
dunno for wat
i think not enough sleep

very long never go fishing with adrian already
and rock oyster collecting

i used to love this so much when i was a kid

i know someone will like this game

prata at little india
the gravy is fantastic
its different from those you get outside
cos its got chickpeas
not bad ar-- i'm an F&B pro ok?

maybe i should go for this apuneh meditation class
to find my sanity back

such a rare sight
an empty suntec carpark

suntec obviously dun like "flying malay girls"

more prata while preparing for the big day

hardworking people

shit happens

cannot find a printer in business lab
got a lot here

been wanting to go duck tours too

cute children on excursion

cute OL at the food court

remembered playing 4-5 hours of polar bear with H10 after IMF here

technicians at work

andrew setting up his F1 simulator
all the way from UK

setting up the manufacturer showcases

guess where i'm going?

pan pacific hotel deluxe suite room 727

i'm a boss man

can look at pretty girls swimming too

reading TIMES magazine

shiok shiok

i'm not a eunuch
i censored off my nether regions

the most boring channel u can get on tv

bible + sutra = blessed room?

back to the set up

i swear the most chio mother
in singtel ads

a last smoke before the big day

my name!

briefing for each departments

the crowd gathering

my favourite
the singtel phone booths

magdeline and guanyuan

janassa

jeremy

felicia and khadijah

strawberry shortcake
would u eat the strawberry first or the cake first?

i wanna do something like that
be a vintage vespa rider

phone auction wit kailing

saw my lil chung cheng-ers

i swear this is a torture

J.CO donuts!
orgasmic

production boys

2008-06-10T11:33:00.000-07:00

if u cannot win fate's evil decisions

you will have to suffer the pain

till fate decides its enough

2008-06-10T09:36:00.000-07:00

i used to like saying this quote A LOT:

"我是风.. "
anyone can remember wats the next line?

if you can, let me know who you are.
ANYONE! sms me - 90374050

quickly ok?
i finish my excel file, go home bathe and rush back down to Suntec already

PREPARING FOR WAR

2008-06-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

waiting to go home

wilson and jocelyn

bring our stuff over to suntec

time check
check check

more lorries

load em up, boys

gates of hell

the giants arrive

distribution of staff passes

joaquim - where i work in IMF
andrie went back to malaysia
andrew is now with pan pacific hotel
according to siva

not forgetting to watch Italia match

food for thought
complimentary from Esther prepaid event

me and my little trolley

I AM GL

never even sleep its time for breakfast already
supper breakfast supper breakfast

was so sleepy i spilled pepper all over my hand
and almost ate it

thought we could buy some clothes to change
if i buy this i'll look like i'm going iraq
for urban warfare

my fav from carrefore - apple pie!

know how to pronounce this?

wat i bought - giodarno

worked overnight
everyone is tired

the super carpenter box

yes - slipper lobster
a lot of idiot vendors like to put up Crayfish
when its not even crayfish!

plus tim sum

din even know how i injured myself
juz a scratch though

can u find goh chock tong?
the security was damn tight

bought this too! =)

我好想回家

2008-06-10T07:56:00.000-07:00

juz came back to the office
its raining heavily outside
当雨点从两旁滑过
it feels like i'm crying
dunno why very depressed

when i came into the office
aunty esther gave me vitamin pills
and they all asked me if i got sleep or not
wat i do at the site
quite warm feeling =)
and wilson sms me to see if i'm alright

anywayz juz now i saw JM at suntec
din know he's working there now
he say Miss Selene Goh always go find him
then i asked "She go find you for wat? 你们有一腿？"
he replied "何止一腿，还两腿啊"
together with him was WL
the friend who's wife died after they got married for one year
i wanted to apologize for not attending the wake
i wanted to give my deepest condolences
but the words din came out
i dunno how to say it
i dun wanna say it
i wanna say something like "坚强坚强再坚强"
but the words din come out right

yesterday jessica told me
this year is very very bad
because according to feng shui studies
this year's Earth element is too rich/strong
therefore the people will suffer
is it our fault that the Earth is too rich/strong?

i realli dun wanna think anymore
i wanna sleep it away
but i can't sleep even though i din sleep last night
dunno why i'm feeling so down
i feel like i can cry
but i'm not going to

gonna pack my stuff from the office
go home bathe
then go back suntec
can someone bring me chocolates?
can someone bring me a hug?
can someone bring me home?

2008-06-09T04:06:00.001-07:00

我只想要一个家
和一个安定的生活

from my mistakes i will learn

2008-06-09T03:23:00.001-07:00

2008-06-09T03:16:00.000-07:00

dosage of love
herbal tea from mrs boss

wilson supposed to meet me at 12pm for lunch
end up i have to starve till 2pm before he arrived

smoking at the staircase
thanks wilson for coming over
realli
i appreciate lunch partners very much
especially when u juz came over from so far
to spend 1hr eating wit me
though u forgot to bring something -_-

can anyone tell the difference?
there are actually A LOT of differences

man at work

telephone booths - cute right?
u'll get to see these in action from Thursday to Sunday
if u visit Suntec Convention Center level 3

photohunt - find my shoes
got 2 pairs

this guy realli very steady
and he got 6 packs
anybody wan? i intro

i found these pretty crystal chrismas balls
very nice right?

till i get really fed-up
cos there are so many of them
(but i like the colourless crystal ones best)
all different colours shapes and sizes
but i'm only looking for EXTENSION CORDS!
where the fuck are they?

2008-06-09T03:15:00.001-07:00

reminds me of the days
when angela was yelling over the phone
and i tell her "relax man, 人家也是妈妈生的！"

2008-06-08T23:05:00.000-07:00

以和为贵
its hard to work wit negative feelings
be patient be patient
i'm however still an underpaid worker
who work unpaid OT

故天将降大任於斯人也 Explained

2008-06-08T21:18:00.000-07:00

故天将降大任(1)於斯人也(2)，必先苦其心志(3)，劳(4)其筋骨，饿其体肤(5)，空乏(6)其身，行拂乱其所为(7)，所以(8)动心忍性(9)，曾益(10)其所不能。
人恒(11)过(12)，然后能改；困于心，衡于虑(13)，而后作(14)

(1)任：责任，担子。
(2)也：这个词用在前半句的末了，表示停顿一下，后半句将要加以解说。
(3)苦其心志：使他的内心痛苦。苦，使……痛苦。使动用法。心志，内心，意志。
(4)劳：使劳累。使动用法。
(5)饿其体肤：意思是使他经受饥饿，以致肌肤消瘦。
(6)空乏：资财缺乏。这里是动词，意思是使他受到贫困之苦。
(7)行拂乱其所为：所行不顺，使他所做的事颠倒错乱。所为，所行。
(8)所以：用来（通过那样的途径来……）
(9)动心忍性：使他的心惊动，使他的性情坚韧起来。
(10)曾益：增加。曾同增。
(11)恒：常。
(12)过：这里意思是犯过失。
(13)衡于虑：思虑堵塞。衡同“横”，梗塞，指不顺。
(14)作：奋起，指有所作为。

Good Morning from Paya Ubi

2008-06-08T20:44:00.000-07:00

Good morning everybody
Its been a peaceful week without going to wakes
cos none of my friends have died in the past week
Life has decided to be creative
now it likes to break up people's families
very well then..

the cigarette box i found behind my laptop
quite sure it belongs to Adrian
cos i remember finish smoking mine long ago
and it still tasted rather fresh
yep-- my new paper is from One Piece

think my mum is crazy
she pasted this all over the house
including my room
SAVE ELECTICITY!
dun tell me, i'm hardly even at home

Eunos MRT station

i arrive in office at 11am today
the production guys are already here
they work very hard
look at the massive props they've produced
impressive hor?

here are some bo-ho-chio jokes we squeezed our brains to cheer Adrian up that day:

Q) Jane sends 5 letters to her boyfriends, how come he only received one?
A) Because Jane got 5 boyfriends.

Q) Guess a chinese idiom - Wat happen if a horse never wear pants?
A) 露出马脚
* but i think YZ's answer was better - 吊儿郎当 (get it?)

Q) Egg comes first or Chicken comes first?
A) Chiken, cos 鸡蛋

Q) Who is older? Male or Female?
A) Male - 先生

Q) What illness does the wife have if the husband has diabetes?
A) Tooth decay

Q) Got 3 men wanted to cross the river full of crocodiles. First man crossed and got eaten up. Second man also crossed and got eaten up. Third man crossed and didn't get eaten up. Why?
A) Cos he wearing Crocodile brand underwear.

Q) Wat does the elephant's left ear look like?
A) the right ear

Q) Why did our mininster announce that Mas Selamat is definitely in Malaysia or Indonesia?
A) Cos when u enter Malaysia you see a banner "Selamat Datang Malaysia", same for Indonesia.
* Datang means "resides in" in malay

Lame hor? Lame hor?
Anyway i very happy today cos my "boyfriend", Wilson is coming later
specially to eat lunch with me
very touched leh.. where can find this kinda friend?
I really appreciate people coming to lunch wit me during my work shift VERY MUCH.
later i will kiss him

eh i'm just kidding ar!
its this kinda shit we've been joking around about
thats why everyone think we are gay.
hahaha!
Thanks Wilson, praise your Lord!

Also, my $70/- fish-eye lens is coming in today or tomorrow
latest by Wednesday
can't wait!!!!!!!!!!

雨水流过的泥土味道很浓厚

2008-06-08T20:30:00.000-07:00

CB Pangster: "she's the only one in your head and you let her fucked up your mind"

rushing cab down to meet adrian
my best pal, i wun let him fall alone

walk all the way from mac to the spooky chalet area
to find adrian

ah Q, yao zhong came also to be there for adrian
look at her, she siao one

the original Island Life crew - MING, YZ, Adrian
"Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave.."

YZ act cute

Adrian as pale as a ghost

acting retarded

control car competition - super boring

we all bought the same slippers
cos we gonna be there for each other

i found my cat!

sirong came later

tried to get the same slipper
but dun have his size

cheers!

to the bottom of every bottle

adrian juz realised i changed his bluetooth nick to 兔崽子
after like errr-- a few months

as usual, Ah Q went crazy after drinking

Rabbit wun be living in Tampines anymore
So means i can't meet him up for late night suppers
go over his house as and when i want to
Take it away, dee dee!
Everything! one at a time..
Take it all away

i spoke to Adrian
i told him - you din do anything at all. and its beyond your control. yet this happens. life realli wants to fuck everyone up this year. for me, i finally did it right. and life takes it away.
he stopped me and said "wait-- you had the choice. lets juz say u made a wrong choice" i said "its controversial; would you choose someone that loves you the most, or someone that you love the most? the one who was always there for you, or the one who you were always there for. the one who fought to be with you, or the one who you fought to be with. love or be loved?"
worst is, i did try to make it correct this time and i did.
anywayz his problem is worst than mine and i think i'm recovered already.
i can manage it already.
be strong, adrian. i'm always here for you!

was doing this last night. its loading time.
delivery to suntec!
tomolo is set-up day..

MIRACLE!

2008-06-08T09:47:00.000-07:00

its 12:47am
i haven been home so early before
jeez..
i dunno wat to do at home

for the past few days
reach home at 5am
lie down on my floor
knock out for 3-4 hrs
wake up go to work

i dun even know wat day of the week today is
everyday seems like a same day
i still can't believe i'm home so early

a miracle just happened
i left my cigarettes at the office balcony while taking the milo photo
reach home nothing to smoke
suddenly i found a pack inside still got like 5-6 cigarettes
damn happy
dunno is i left behind from my malaysia trip
or Rabbit left in my house this morning

oh yes.. gotta call him
to check if he's ok

2008-06-08T08:47:00.000-07:00

measure measure
dunno one day need to measure things how many times
again and again

yes, we were eating Canadian pizza
suddenly this Sarpino pizza boy came in through our door
wtf right?

we ordered Canadian pizza
no doubt about it

Jessica scolding the Sarprino phone operator
cos she cancelled the order
and they still delivered
they claim that their 12 lines are all different outlets
poorly communicated company

spent a whole afternoon doing this
pfffttt

sipeh shagged

after 15th i will quit smoking
for myself

our production guys work day and night
respect

stole benji's USB fan to use for a while
quite cool

J.CO
a donut shop at Raffles Place basement
fantastic taste

i see this floor plan till i wanna vomit already

packet milo
how long have it been since i last drank it
actually din wanna drink cos only got 4 in the fridge
but hahha.. i love milo

hmmm.. why did i post this?
oh yes, tomolo i need to do something about it
cannot post here..
hahha..

2008-06-08T07:26:00.000-07:00

你宁愿做你的“好人”你就去吧
我不想再当天下人的笑话了

2008-06-08T04:34:00.000-07:00

i dun deserve her cos i found u
u dun deserve me cos u found him
and dun even tell me not to speak about him
face it! you suck as much as i do!

ppl dun juz come along
and dun tell me shit cos i know everything already
since long ago
i juz dun wanna make u feel like shit
to know that i actually knew

i din even say anything when u lie to the world
lie to yourself
lie to me
i have enough pictures enough to prove it
why din i?
why did i remove the pictures upon your request?

all i did to protect you
to let u treat me like dirt
and scold me "fuck you"
i say - FUCK YOU too!

i've always been on your side
no matter how shit the situation is
now you switched side
you are the TWO FACE!

i dun deserve this shit!
i dun need to be a fool like this

2008-06-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

BREAK OUT!
BREAK OUT!
BREAK OUT!

2008-06-08T01:11:00.000-07:00

花会开春会来还有期待些什么
该放的是否已经放手我还要什么理由
轻轻说悄悄说微风一样的轻柔
或许你也曾经经历过知道我没有把握
我的名字飞进了雨中慢慢浮现在我心口
请你原谅我的无法捉模因为我不曾爱过

想忘的遗忘的总有涌现的时候
该不该让你来拥抱我我知道我没把握
我的名字飞进了雨中慢慢浮现在我心口
请你原谅我的无法捉模因为我不曾爱过

眼前的你竟让我难过还有湿红了我眼眸
我要全部放弃全部从头因我握你的手已经足够
已经足够